Shortness of breath when I walk a short flight of stairs or even just a few meters, tightening of my clothes, a sudden loathing to look at myself in the mirror. Yup I guess I’m beginning to experience it. I admit I have all the danger signals but still I refuse to admit it – I am indeed overweight! Well, actually I have been made aware of it for quite some time now,the hubby has called my attention many times already and even my daughter has joked about my widening frame but the sad thing is I can’t seem to do anything about it!
Not that I am not doing anything, of course not! I have tried everything – from a no-carb diet, to an after six diet, to jogging (occasionally!) But as it is nothing seems to work – not even an ounce or an inch is lost from my ever increasing weight and waist line – what am I to do now??? I think I have ran out of options or I guess it is my motivation that has ran out on me! I usually feel so tired to exercise and I find it too tedious to go and prepare a separate ‘diet’ food for myself so I end up just eating what’s on the table.
I think it was about ten years ago when I did the South Beach Diet. Back then I was quite enthusiastic in preparing my salads and other ‘carb and sugar-free foods’. I was even doing taebo then. But now, oh well, I guess that’s what I really need to do first - get the motivation, the urge, the desire – to go out and really LOSE WEIGHT!!! Maybe I need new rubber shoes or maybe a gym subscription or new gym equipment that I can use at home or even just a new gym partner??? Whatever it is, I hope I find out soon what kind of motivation I truly need. Otherwise, I would never be able to lose all these unwanted pounds in my body.
