Thursday, May 24, 2007

TO DIET OR NOT





I wonder why despite my best efforts to control my eating habits, I still have not regained my ideal weight... for the past year, I have restricted my intake of rice and other carbs like bread and pasta (my favorite...!!!) and still my weight has refused to go down, and remains permanently fixed at 128 lbs... still 10-15 pounds more than it should be!



Two years ago, I embarked on one of the popular diets available and for awhile I was able to maintain my ideal weight... but after awhile I began to slack off and started snacking again on sweets ( a big no-no!). Add to that the fact that I moved to another company so that meant no more weekly taebo sessions!!!



So I guess it should not come as a big surprise to me why I couldn't really put the weight off ... too much sweets and lack of exercise are the culprits!!! But more than that I guess it's the complacency that seems to have settled over me... so confident was I that since I do not eat rice anymore I would not really gain weight... well I was dead wrong!!!



Now I'm aghast at the fact that whenever I window shop at a mall the fat person that I see in the reflection turns out to be me!!! (surprise! surprise!) So I vowed to start eating healthy again... forget the sweets!!! ...but definitely not the pasta!!! (oh pleaze!!!)... I'll just eat more fruits and veggies... no more chocolates and chips!!! So bring on the oatmeal... the salads... the steamed dishes... and the flourless dark chocolate cake (ha,ha,ha I guess I can still have my cake and eat it too!!!) I hope I will find the time to also take up a new sport...But I guess more than that, I am hoping I'll have better willpower to practice what I preach...

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

GOING OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE




I have often heard this phrase before but I never really knew what it meant ... neither did I foresee that such a phrase would be applicable to me...

I guess you may consider that I'm that type of person who needs to always feel safe and protected with familiar people and things around me. I'm the type to bring along a favorite thread-bare blanket just so I can sleep soundly in a cold and unfamiliar hotel room... the type who would refuse to switch jobs even if the pay is good because I'd hate to leave the friends I have made or the routine I have so gotten used to...heck...I would not even try out a different restaurant or take in a movie unless I have gotten very good reviews from people I know and truly trust...I guess you could say I'm not really the type to venture out of my comfort zone...

But now at my age, I guess I'm ready to step out of my comfort zone and see the world ... so to speak. I need to stop being a turtle and take myself out of my shell, every once in a while... after all, we only pass by this world once, I do not want to end up regretting not living my life to the fullest or not savoring every moment while I still can...

Monday, May 14, 2007

WHY ONLY NOW?

...this is the question I have been asking myself for countless times already especially now that I finally found the courage to post my random thoughts on-line... fact is, I've created this blog site since late last year but have never really found the time...or maybe the inspiration to write about anything.

I guess, I felt overwhelmed with the numerous blogsites I have read...how their words seem to be very colorful and creative... and how their images and color hues effectively put across the emotions they have set to convey...

I guess, I felt fearful that I may not live up to expectations... that I may not have any interesting thing to say...that I may just end up like those blogsites I loathe - full of hate and rants about anything and everything

I guess, it was just the old sickness creeping in on me...that disease called procrastination...such that I just kept putting off starting to write for this and that reason until one day I realized it has been eight months already since I created this blog and still no post!?! [ come to think of it...I already forgot my password!]

But then again... why do I need to be afraid? why do I need to worry if my grammar isn't good, if my syntax is wrong or my spelling incorrect? Why worry if others who may be reading this will not find it interesting?!? why worry when blogs actually grant me the freedom to write about anything at all and not worry if it's right or wrong... they're my thoughts, my feelings anyway so anybody else's opinion should not really matter...