MAMA FE IS DEAD

Today, we said goodbye to a dear aunt - a sister of my mother, the one she is closest the most… I know she had her faults and made some mistakes against my mother countless times but knowing my mother…she was quick to forgive. Whenever, Mama had her problems, it was to Mama Fe that she ran to, even back to the days when they were still young teeners. It was her that she confided in with all her problems, her dreams, her ambitions…but now she’s gone, my mother did not just lose a sister, but she also lost a best friend.

The hubby and I visited her wake earlier in the week which was held at their house in Luzon. Looking at her face, she looked old and a bit withered with age and I guess with many problems in her life. I never knew she was sick with anything and her children said she probably kept her pains to herself so as not to burden them…which was why most of her relatives were surprised with her sudden passing. She had some problems with her children, well most mothers do… but I wasn’t sure it was enough to keep her depressed.

And so as she was laid down to her final resting place at Holy Cross Memorial Park, most of her children cried …maybe in regret for not loving her the way she should be loved… maybe for not being able to ask for forgiveness for all the mistakes they have made…maybe for their loneliness for losing the mother they loved. I cried, too, because I regret not being able to know her more, as my aunt and my mother’s sister and best friend…and for not being able to show my appreciation for what she has done for my mom…I cried too for my mother…since I feel her loss and desolation. I just wish she would get over Mama Fe’s death soon and learn to accept her passing no matter how difficult.